[ it's entirely possible that nobody before's ever told keith that they've wanted to kiss him again. it's likely that nobody before's ever so much as implied to keith that they wanted to kiss him at all.
he should be conscious of his position: in shiro's bed under the lamp-thinned dark, fingers still knotted around his wrist -- but it's a close moment, and all that parses is the shadowy shape of shiro's mouth and heat's new, slow surge, a coil in the pit of his belly and faintly scorching along his ears. ]
but it's a close distance, close enough to feel keith's hair prickling along his skin, and close enough to feel every breath of his response brushing against his chin. he's not nearly as abrupt about it, half-lidded and fixed on keith's mouth, but it doesn't take more than a second to tilt his head, to gauge for the hesitant moment that keith might tug away.
but the pause ticks on by and he closes the last bit of distance, pressing their mouths together in a softer sort of kiss. ]
[ it's a chain reaction: his head jerking to meet the angle, a name that melts on his tongue, his fist grinding tight in shiro's shirt as the first faint breath cracks between them, swayed into a kiss.
it's easy, is the thing -- a kiss warm and reeling headlong, certainty banded through him, ironclad. more than the icy rains or oldtown's crumbling backstreets, he knows this man -- knows the body tilting against him and the pulse gleaming beneath his knuckles. it should be no surprise at all that he's leaning into it after no more than a lost beat and a faint, displeased sound, all demand and immediate intent, chasing the only sure thing left in the world. ]
[ they could be all wrong about it. if he were a better man, maybe he'd find all the ways he could talk keith down from wasting his time.
he shouldn't, but there's no mistaking the silly, punch-drunk surge of a feeling rattling around inside of his skull, the racing of his heartbeat, or the familiar memory of keith's crooked smile.
but it's real now, and he doesn't have the benefit of hindsight, no hypotheticals to really base the feeling on -- nothing but the look keith gave him, perfectly content with his face in shiro's hand, smiling with the sun behind it, a planet settling into orbit. he shouldn't, but he leans in and kisses keith properly this time, slow and thorough and careful, long enough to taste the next breath curling along his tongue.
and maybe, a moment later, the next exhale along the inside of keith's teeth. ]
[ the kiss is clumsy, but that doesn't dim any of its urgency, its force, the faint shocked sound he makes as his mouth parts and his eyes lid, chasing the faint spark of salt that runs from tongue to tongue. it lasts longer than it should, too -- but then, it's easy to linger, grip tightening in the thin vest, trusting that shiro'll take his weight. no surprise that the second kiss tumbles into the third with the tilt of his head, yielding and yielding, instinct-ridden with only the slightest sigh to betray him. ]
[ funny. here he'd thought it'd been going too slow.
all it takes is for that first, unknowing moment to pass, for keith's tense, grasping hands and his next inhale sucked into his lungs like a fish out of water, and then keith's pressing in without a single mote of resistance, no flailing, no confused flurry. nothing's really made sense in the last handful of weeks and months, but regardless of the lack of some old sparked memory, the lack of ghosts reaching out at him from behind the sidelines, this is the most right he's felt in a while.
three kisses, and then a fourth longer one; his lips are already sore, and their teeth bump before he thinks to avoid it, but he's got his arm circling the small of keith's back, and there's no sign that he's about to let go. it's unfamiliar, of course. he maps keith's mouth and tastes the chocolate, the iron tang of blood where his lip might have split, but he's licking along the ridges of the roof of his mouth, and pressing along the inside of his cheek.
he doesn't remember a thing about being this ridiculously happy -- doesn't remember ever thinking, finally like it ever meant anything more than this. ]
[ instinct's a drug. instinct tells him here, here: clench his fingertips along the rumpling lines of shiro's shirt, smooth knuckles to palm along the caging ribs and the skipping thud beneath, knot his fist tighter, anchoring enough to roughen the next kiss. it aches, dull felt throbs between kisses, but instinct's answering in kind before a single second-guess slides between them -- and so his fingers slide along the nape of shiro's neck as he leans up, up, knee dredging a creak out of old springs as he crowds close enough to brush chest against chest, flushed and heavy-lidded, riled off of a fever whose need he can't quite name. ]
Shiro -
[ a whisper, a hoarse, heady gasp -- there's no telling where that tone came from, all trust and torn-open desperation, like a murmur out of a moment forgotten but not exorcised. still: they're in the dark together, his fingers hooking into the loop of shiro's belt as he braces up against him, an instant from sliding into his lap.
soon, they'll stop; they have to. until then, the warmth alone feels like answer enough for everything. ]
[ he's quickly coming to find that keith doesn't do anything in increments. it's what makes a kiss like this so terrifying, how keith gives himself up to it in a headlong stride, mindless and worriless, with everything he has to offer in a single heart-stopping instant.
he could almost shy away from it. or maybe he's overwhelmed already with his hair prickling beneath keith's solid hand, or his heartbeat thudding in line with keith's matching, rapid pulse. or maybe it's keith climbing into his lap without a second thought, settling there until his fingers hook thoughtlessly into his belt.
it wouldn't have been a problem, if keith hadn't said his name just so, if he wasn't wearing a look he's never worn before, in his bed, in his lap, wearing his clothes that are several sizes too big for the bared stretch of his throat and collar.
as it is right now -- it's a pretty big problem. ]
I --
[ it comes out rough, kiss-worn and husky when he's breathless, when his hands have settled along the slant of keith's waist. he should stop before it gets worse, before he sounds any more like an idiot, and now he's rubbing his thumbs along the curve of his hip bone - ]
[ it takes a moment just to reel for breath. there's stars spinning dizzy at the back of his skull, the taste of shiro's mouth still clinging to his tongue -- and he hasn't pulled away enough not to register the click of work in his teeth, close enough to lean in and taste.
fact after fact -- it wasn't a great kiss; in the lull, his lips sting with the dull throb of bruising. not a single beat pulls him away, lightens his weight where he's braced himself, a knee by shiro's hip -- stops him from shifting a little into the unsteady drag of fingers on his skin. ]
[ that's -- a rather silly reaction to get hot under the collar about.
but it's probably bad form to push keith away before it gets any worse... even if the weight's starting to feel like it's becoming more and more like a valid emergency. but he's overheated, and keith's starry-eyed in the proximity. at least when he's pressing their foreheads together, the view's slightly blurred.
[ weird words to bring him back to himself, his ink-stark pupils thinning back by degrees as his grip slides and tightens over a shoulder, as the whisper presses between them. ]
[ it'd be a lot easier if keith decided to just up and do it.
but they're comfortable now -- or maybe more comfortable than they've never been. keith looks good like this, his face getting familiarly red, and his body kept close.
none of it feels like something he's had before. ]
[ a sound that seems to come hooked out of his lungs as his grip grinds bone, as his whole frame stiffens -- and sways, arches just a little into the touch. he's flushed, half on warmth and half on disbelief -- that even if this is nothing familiar, it still feels good. ]
or the way keith squirms in his lap, reactive and tense and unwinding in an unlocking sort of sequence that he can feel every step of the way. it makes him go stock-still, his heartbeat racing. his gaze fixes on keith's bruise-shiny mouth, and he's trying very hard not to try to have keith make that sound again. ]
. . . just. Until the laundry's done.
[ that's an excuse. he's stalling at this point, peppering small kisses against keith's swollen mouth. the memories aren't coming, but no matter what he does, it still feels like he's wanted this for years. ]
I could try to make you another cup of coffee . . .
[ it's a series of hadn't-meants: he hadn't meant to tumble into shiro's lap, hadn't meant to wind up with his fingers clinging to a shoulder, hadn't meant to stay braced there as he presses back greedily into kiss after kiss, shallow quick flares of nothing but heat.
but hadn't meant to isn't slowing him down much. ]
. . . you sure your coffee machine'd even survive that?
[ it crooks his mouth a little despite the barb. it's probably not a good sign that keith gets really into it, that it's hard to get him to stop first.
but the worse sign is forgetting, at least for a moment, that he could trigger an explosive, and that he'd get keith caught up in it.
. . . ]
If you can't wait here, how about coming along with me?
[ . . . he should probably realize how exactly that sounds.
and how compromising this is, with keith still sat in his lap, and he's still bracing himself for the hug and the kiss and whatever that's going to come after, if he's not willing to say goodbye just yet.
instead, he's just blurting out whatever's in his head, and if they're all bad ideas, if keith finally tells him, stop, this isn't working, what are we even doing? then at least he has all of this warmth to remember him by. but for now, he forces his fingers open still, lifts them to cradle keith's face in his palms. he's still thinking about the boy in his dream, and maybe that's unfair, too, that he doesn't want to go because he made some promise to his imagination. ]
. . . at least until your clothes dry.
We can -- talk. [ yes, very natural, good job. as if he weren't nosing into the bare stretch of keith's throat and trying to catch his breath. ] While I make my rounds.
[ there should be warnings for this, a name for this -- how sensation keeps coming in a punch-drunk reel, all dizzy flares and static where shiro's breath slides across his skin. the hand that'd settled so gingerly on shiro's shoulder's flattened, steadied like he needs it for balance; the other's a more delicate frame against his ribs, fit to memorise the curve as he manages a blundering, breathless answer - ]
Yeah. All right.
[ it isn't that instinct's driven out thought -- shiro's company, asking him to lock himself into a company car with passengers who hardly need their rides advertised. shiro's a name more memory than anything real, a gut feeling and a bad idea.
and yet: a welling, willing shiver, his head tilting back by degrees as his fingers dig in blunt points and his thighs drag together, anchoring him in place. ]
. . . when - [ oh, silent and felt. ] when do you have to head out?
that's ridiculous, like it's a surprise when keith's the one who's just as greedy, putting his hands everywhere without thinking, shuddering into a slow cant, and pushing his legs against the mattress like he's completely unaware of how that must feel, with all of his weight grinding down against him.
it's probably true. ]
F-
[ it's unsteady, a hot rush of breath where his mouth's landed against keith's collar, his hand tangled in his hair, the other dropping to his nape.
he should push him off. especially when they've only got - ]
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[ oh my god, keith has a terrifying pout.
... cute. ]
I just -- it was a nice kiss.
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[ it's entirely possible that nobody before's ever told keith that they've wanted to kiss him again. it's likely that nobody before's ever so much as implied to keith that they wanted to kiss him at all.
he should be conscious of his position: in shiro's bed under the lamp-thinned dark, fingers still knotted around his wrist -- but it's a close moment, and all that parses is the shadowy shape of shiro's mouth and heat's new, slow surge, a coil in the pit of his belly and faintly scorching along his ears. ]
Do you -- not get kissed that much?
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shut up. ]
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I guess not.
Sorry I disappointed you.
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[ blame reflex for the way his fingers tighten to haul shiro in. ]
You know that's not what I meant.
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but it's a close distance, close enough to feel keith's hair prickling along his skin, and close enough to feel every breath of his response brushing against his chin. he's not nearly as abrupt about it, half-lidded and fixed on keith's mouth, but it doesn't take more than a second to tilt his head, to gauge for the hesitant moment that keith might tug away.
but the pause ticks on by and he closes the last bit of distance, pressing their mouths together in a softer sort of kiss. ]
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it's easy, is the thing -- a kiss warm and reeling headlong, certainty banded through him, ironclad. more than the icy rains or oldtown's crumbling backstreets, he knows this man -- knows the body tilting against him and the pulse gleaming beneath his knuckles. it should be no surprise at all that he's leaning into it after no more than a lost beat and a faint, displeased sound, all demand and immediate intent, chasing the only sure thing left in the world. ]
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he shouldn't, but there's no mistaking the silly, punch-drunk surge of a feeling rattling around inside of his skull, the racing of his heartbeat, or the familiar memory of keith's crooked smile.
but it's real now, and he doesn't have the benefit of hindsight, no hypotheticals to really base the feeling on -- nothing but the look keith gave him, perfectly content with his face in shiro's hand, smiling with the sun behind it, a planet settling into orbit. he shouldn't, but he leans in and kisses keith properly this time, slow and thorough and careful, long enough to taste the next breath curling along his tongue.
and maybe, a moment later, the next exhale along the inside of keith's teeth. ]
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all it takes is for that first, unknowing moment to pass, for keith's tense, grasping hands and his next inhale sucked into his lungs like a fish out of water, and then keith's pressing in without a single mote of resistance, no flailing, no confused flurry. nothing's really made sense in the last handful of weeks and months, but regardless of the lack of some old sparked memory, the lack of ghosts reaching out at him from behind the sidelines, this is the most right he's felt in a while.
three kisses, and then a fourth longer one; his lips are already sore, and their teeth bump before he thinks to avoid it, but he's got his arm circling the small of keith's back, and there's no sign that he's about to let go. it's unfamiliar, of course. he maps keith's mouth and tastes the chocolate, the iron tang of blood where his lip might have split, but he's licking along the ridges of the roof of his mouth, and pressing along the inside of his cheek.
he doesn't remember a thing about being this ridiculously happy -- doesn't remember ever thinking, finally like it ever meant anything more than this. ]
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Shiro -
[ a whisper, a hoarse, heady gasp -- there's no telling where that tone came from, all trust and torn-open desperation, like a murmur out of a moment forgotten but not exorcised. still: they're in the dark together, his fingers hooking into the loop of shiro's belt as he braces up against him, an instant from sliding into his lap.
soon, they'll stop; they have to. until then, the warmth alone feels like answer enough for everything. ]
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he could almost shy away from it. or maybe he's overwhelmed already with his hair prickling beneath keith's solid hand, or his heartbeat thudding in line with keith's matching, rapid pulse. or maybe it's keith climbing into his lap without a second thought, settling there until his fingers hook thoughtlessly into his belt.
it wouldn't have been a problem, if keith hadn't said his name just so, if he wasn't wearing a look he's never worn before, in his bed, in his lap, wearing his clothes that are several sizes too big for the bared stretch of his throat and collar.
as it is right now -- it's a pretty big problem. ]
I --
[ it comes out rough, kiss-worn and husky when he's breathless, when his hands have settled along the slant of keith's waist. he should stop before it gets worse, before he sounds any more like an idiot, and now he's rubbing his thumbs along the curve of his hip bone - ]
Work.
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[ it takes a moment just to reel for breath. there's stars spinning dizzy at the back of his skull, the taste of shiro's mouth still clinging to his tongue -- and he hasn't pulled away enough not to register the click of work in his teeth, close enough to lean in and taste.
fact after fact -- it wasn't a great kiss; in the lull, his lips sting with the dull throb of bruising. not a single beat pulls him away, lightens his weight where he's braced himself, a knee by shiro's hip -- stops him from shifting a little into the unsteady drag of fingers on his skin. ]
What. . . ?
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but it's probably bad form to push keith away before it gets any worse... even if the weight's starting to feel like it's becoming more and more like a valid emergency. but he's overheated, and keith's starry-eyed in the proximity. at least when he's pressing their foreheads together, the view's slightly blurred.
uh, huh. what an understatement. ]
. . . I'm gonna be late for my shift.
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[ weird words to bring him back to himself, his ink-stark pupils thinning back by degrees as his grip slides and tightens over a shoulder, as the whisper presses between them. ]
I guess -- I should get out of here.
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but they're comfortable now -- or maybe more comfortable than they've never been. keith looks good like this, his face getting familiarly red, and his body kept close.
none of it feels like something he's had before. ]
I think your clothes are still in the wash.
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looks down at the slipping collar, the drawstring shorts. ]
Do you want these back -- right now?
[ why would anyone want them back ever. ]
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[ it's murmured in a low voice, a little guilty. he's still got his hands over keith's waist, running up his ribs and higher - ]
Could you stay?
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[ a sound that seems to come hooked out of his lungs as his grip grinds bone, as his whole frame stiffens -- and sways, arches just a little into the touch. he's flushed, half on warmth and half on disbelief -- that even if this is nothing familiar, it still feels good. ]
You said you were heading out to work.
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or the way keith squirms in his lap, reactive and tense and unwinding in an unlocking sort of sequence that he can feel every step of the way. it makes him go stock-still, his heartbeat racing. his gaze fixes on keith's bruise-shiny mouth, and he's trying very hard not to try to have keith make that sound again. ]
. . . just. Until the laundry's done.
[ that's an excuse. he's stalling at this point, peppering small kisses against keith's swollen mouth. the memories aren't coming, but no matter what he does, it still feels like he's wanted this for years. ]
I could try to make you another cup of coffee . . .
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but hadn't meant to isn't slowing him down much. ]
. . . you sure your coffee machine'd even survive that?
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[ it crooks his mouth a little despite the barb. it's probably not a good sign that keith gets really into it, that it's hard to get him to stop first.
but the worse sign is forgetting, at least for a moment, that he could trigger an explosive, and that he'd get keith caught up in it.
. . . ]
If you can't wait here, how about coming along with me?
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Where?
[ wait. he's thinking, thoughts flickering like wingbeats even as he leans into shiro's splaying hands, a kiss cut just short. ]
The car? . . . can you do that?
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[ . . . he should probably realize how exactly that sounds.
and how compromising this is, with keith still sat in his lap, and he's still bracing himself for the hug and the kiss and whatever that's going to come after, if he's not willing to say goodbye just yet.
instead, he's just blurting out whatever's in his head, and if they're all bad ideas, if keith finally tells him, stop, this isn't working, what are we even doing? then at least he has all of this warmth to remember him by. but for now, he forces his fingers open still, lifts them to cradle keith's face in his palms. he's still thinking about the boy in his dream, and maybe that's unfair, too, that he doesn't want to go because he made some promise to his imagination. ]
. . . at least until your clothes dry.
We can -- talk. [ yes, very natural, good job. as if he weren't nosing into the bare stretch of keith's throat and trying to catch his breath. ] While I make my rounds.
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Yeah. All right.
[ it isn't that instinct's driven out thought -- shiro's company, asking him to lock himself into a company car with passengers who hardly need their rides advertised. shiro's a name more memory than anything real, a gut feeling and a bad idea.
and yet: a welling, willing shiver, his head tilting back by degrees as his fingers dig in blunt points and his thighs drag together, anchoring him in place. ]
. . . when - [ oh, silent and felt. ] when do you have to head out?
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that's ridiculous, like it's a surprise when keith's the one who's just as greedy, putting his hands everywhere without thinking, shuddering into a slow cant, and pushing his legs against the mattress like he's completely unaware of how that must feel, with all of his weight grinding down against him.
it's probably true. ]
F-
[ it's unsteady, a hot rush of breath where his mouth's landed against keith's collar, his hand tangled in his hair, the other dropping to his nape.
he should push him off. especially when they've only got - ]
Five minutes.
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