inbox;

[stressors]

● "Hey, it's Shiro." ●

"Sorry you missed me. Leave me one and I'll call you right back. Thanks."

☏ call. ✉ text. ⌨ video. ☄ action.

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[stressors]

But thanks.

I don't know why, but I really wanted to hear from you.

[impulsors]

[ . . . ]

probably because you just woke up

[stressors]

[ . . . ]

Well. I missed you.

[impulsors]

did you feel a draft or something?

[stressors]

[ a laugh, not that keith can hear it. ]

Yeah, that's probably it.

Nights are getting colder.

[impulsors]

[ . . . ]

if you want a new window just say it

[stressors]

[ hard to imagine the same boy tucking his head under his chin to sleep.

ah, well. ]

I meant it. No ulterior motives. I had a dream about you, and I missed you when I woke up.

I'll try to ensure it doesn't happen again.

[impulsors]

[ but that still leaves him with lead under his tongue and an empty, mindless pull underlying every bone. the bed's too big with the way he's crowded himself against the wall, one knee drawn up. holding his place as if he's only waiting.

it isn't the fever; it can't be just that. but there're no other options. ]

can i see you?

[stressors]

[ he expected a more discouraging reaction.

a rejection, and they'd be done with it. no more broken windows; no more strange nostalgia; no more thinking about some strange boy by his side, with a small, rare smile telling him, i'm glad you're back.

better to be disappointed now than later. and yet, there's still this. ]

You're not weirded out?

[impulsors]

it IS weird. it doesn't fit.

but it feels right when you're there. like you're supposed to be

[ which conveniently skirts around any questions of missing anyone in the present tense. ]

[stressors]

[ what the fuck how is that any better than "i missed you"

. . . ]

You know, most people wouldn't think twice about someone who's been following them around for a week.

Finding out they've been rooting through your things.

[impulsors]

you're not most people

[stressors]

You're going to make me blush.

[impulsors]

you know what i meant

can i see you today or not

[stressors]

[ it isn't the smartest diversion. killjoys are neutral, and it isn't like the company's very popular with the majority vote these days.

they both probably have other things to worry about. he has the thing on the cruiser to attend, and the long drive to get there. he has assignments that he's really not looking forward to, and it isn't as though he has any time to keep his own agenda, to keep his own counsel. after all, what's the use in fixating on a dream?

. . . ]

How soon can you get here?

[impulsors]

25 minutes

[ and then - ]

wait. 15

[stressors]

Without running the lights.

[impulsors]

i'm not gonna get caught

[stressors]

I'm going to wait for you either way.

Ten minutes won't make much of a difference.

[impulsors]

[ . . . ]

does it matter to you?

[stressors]

[ . . . ]

Your safety?

Or seeing you sooner than later?

[impulsors]

i know how to drive

[ and then, darkly - ]

but i'll watch the lights

[stressors]

I know you'll be all right.

[ despite not knowing him. and that's strange, too. ]

Want to meet halfway?

[impulsors]

no. just let me come find you

[stressors]

Then I'll wait right here.